Relationships suck

I am still alive. Just. I was, until recently, in a relationship that started in late summer and kind of distracted me from the important things in life, like blogging.

What did I learn? Not much really. Just confirmed to me that I am not the marrying kind. Too selfish. Too distracted by other women. I just don't think I can give any woman exclusivity. Trying to tame my urge to fuck nearly every female between the ages of 16 and 35 (and a good few outside that range) just makes me unhappy.

And its not just the urge to have sex. I like to spend time and get intimate with different women. Share thoughts, smiles and laughs.

The other insurmountable barrier in the way of any long term relationship for me is that most women want to have babies and I don't want to be a father. It takes a while but they eventually realise that my objection is implacable with the result that they conclude that I cannot be "the one".

I guess when I am 70 and chasing after hot 50 year olds this won't be and issue but until then I will remain essentially single.